Frankie is still sick and she doesn't know how she is gonna manage to pull herself up and do all the shit she has to do 2nite. Its gonna be a rough one....

I didnt even blog today but i can keep my compsoure and wriete a bollflg

The only 3

So I read both of yall blogs and omg Im feelin yall in all aspects umm its weird cause its like we are all at that place in our life right now where its just IDK stagnant. Ive felt like this for a looonnngggg time and stagnancy in my book usually leads me to feeling purposeless BUT Ive just recently decided to have some hope. I mean Dori your father can probably run laps around me in the advice department but hey here is a little bit: HOPE! And Maya mundane people and just the same ole shit everyday, Im witcha bruh! Im just looking for that thing that's different, that's gonna pop out at me and say YES FRANKIE! But I guess thats the problem, lets create our own epiphany instead of waiting for it. Lets be contructive and stop being lazy and do something. Shit lets make a band, write some songs, record some shit. Lets DO something. we all know that school alone doesnt fill that spot. to be honest I just cant get hard off it, school moves to slow for my mind. and to be honest yall the only niggas that can keep my attention. LOL. So I come today saying I understand where you coming from so lets get up and makes some plans for where we are about to go. Encourage eachother and act a damn fool at the same time, We are the Crayonz and music is our boyfriend so FUCK NIGGAS and GET MONEY! lol anyway yall know what I mean tho. I love yall hoes especially since we are the only 3 that still blog.

So WHAT!

I hate formal presentations I have yet to make it into a Public Speaking class and I have no idea how im gonna make it through! ahhhhhhh. anyway Mr man you can shove it and yes I know I said umm 20 times! And yes I was nervous you are just angry because Im intelligent young beautiful and articulate and you are just riff raff! Ok I think im done.

Plesant Surprise

A very pleasant night I must say. Breath of fresh air, although brisk, still refreshing indeed. In fact I dont think I feel inclined to write about it, I think Ill just ever so silently reflect and bask in the unmarked possibilities.

Nite

Dancing Machine

Dancing! Dancing!! Dancing!!! Doing the butt dun dun dun da. Yea bruh I am a dancing extrodinaire ask dori I raped that Christmas dance. chea!!!!

Everything happens for a reason. Right?

Sometimes I wonder about the phrase "everything happens for a reason" Now granted Im a forgetful person but she really coulda let me go. I sit back and wonder what was the purpose of that, was I supposed to learn some great and valuable lesson or is it just added torture to an already miserable existence. Dont get me wrong Im handling this much better than usual Frankie would. By now I would have cried and told the girl off for not letting me have my way. So I guess we'll call them growing pains. Ill suck it up and just say I need to be more responsible and less forgetful. Ehh this amount of maturity is scary for me. Nobody to blame but me, and even further not eactly blaming myself but just owning up to it and doing something about it. TAKE THAT BPD TAKE THAT RIGHT IN THE ASS, lol.

PS. Guys Im ok, and no I didnt break down.

toodles

I never get tired of this

I love this poem, cause its so short and sweet and there isnt nothing I can do to change it..


Acoustic guitars play in the foreground of my mind

The lullaby of wood and strings intertwine

As they captivate me and pull with a sweet dissonance

Resolve will you not, oh chord in my dream

Or will you leave me hanging over the clef

Trying to find my tonal center

Cobbler

The poem I was talking about from last night, enjoy!


1 My emotions are the river that drown me,

the sea consuming Ph 2, ocean everflowing, undertaking.

2 He wouldn’t love me even if I was 5’11,

browned skinned and the sweetest thing he’s ever…

3 graced with the touch of his tongue,

even if he’d brought his ears to focus on the vibration of my tone,

rested his cornea on the vision of my splendidness,

and laid down his hand upon my skin with such gentleness

that it was forceful sending pulses through me making his aroma

engrained in my nostrils never forgetting his scent.

4 Only if he’d have me…to where I could hear his touch,

every stroke sending a sound wave to my brain,

taste his fragrance that lingers like a bad habit atop my skin.

5 Jonathan A. Campbell, Miami Beach Florida Summer 2001

6 But of course he would love me and I am emotionally sound

7 I was approaching the cliff of sorrow,

filled with mother's voices trying to soothe the sobs

of their nightmare stricken children.

Nightmares as horrid as licking the point of a thousand needles...

8 Slick,

9 If you put the apples in the trunk you won’t ever find the apple tree

10 But all the jive turkeys stand under the peach trees

11 The green fruit of individualism, what we most strive for

12 Because we all gather on the thin line of reproach and dive

13 We can even grow tails and tell tales of how they swung just like

14 Frankie,

cause she is always trying to make it make sense

15 We will go to the edge of misery only to come back again emptier than before

16 Capable men and those we thought strong will fall to their knees

17 Men waffle in storybooks and beasts angle toward charms

18 And they SHOUT! “Vita brevis ars longa”

19 As the forbidden fruit opens its stomata to breath to me

“Love Thyself, Know Oneself, Be Yourself” the fruit speaks!

20 The turkeys still gathering peaches to plum the moon.

Upset! (slick, so oh well)

Frankie is mad that everybody is too busy living life to actually sit down and blog. So I guess its up to me to break the anti-blog frenzie. So anyway I guess I'll be cliche' and tell about my day. My day was actually GOOD! Lol isnt that amazing? I had a wonderful day actually, and I laughed and smiled more than I have in a looooonnnnnggggg time! It felt great to smile and actually mean it! OMG I actually came back to my room and stayed up, usually I miserably just hop in my bed and sleep life away. NOT TODAY SAID I! lol ok that was random and corny. oh well. Ok I guess im done, imma try to finish this poem thats due tomorrow when Im done Ill post it.

toodles

Its time

I know Ive been like this for a long time, but I think its time to get a hold on life.

So its time...

to get help
to have hope
to dream once more
to love myself
to wake up
to think good thoughts
to live my life
to walk into my purpose
to have faith in that purpose
to pray a little harder
to have some faith
to leave the baggage behind
to stop the pessimism
to rid myself of the nightmares
to talk
to let it all out
to SCREAM IT OUT
to get rid of it all
to stop holding myself back
to look above
to know I'm loved
to not give up
to know that with each day God gives us knew grace and new mercy
to know that he was right, and tell him so
to thank him for his love
to thank him for his help and earnest
to tell him sorry
to love him still
to smile like I used to....and mean it


and for that tattoo, lol

Love Thyself, Know Oneself, Be Yourself


















-Frankie

Singular Form Please

So I know Jedi is the plural form so whats the singular form

Jedee
Jedo
Jedie
Jede'
Jed

Im confused....

Disappearing Act

This was gonna be a poem but I just dont have the energy to do it today. Im numb and just maybe the world would have changed by tomorrow, lol

Ill sleep on it............again

Cat Found!!!

Ok this was from dori's fav facebook group hilarious.

Dick

Josh is a dick him and Sam can go butt fuck in the back alley!

Fuck Sam...

So I ate sushi and died again last night. I hate Sam's, I mean he is a cool guy but the sushi is terrible. I miss Rusan he always did me right. Sam its all your fault I was stuck in bed sick last night bruh, it aint even right.....

Nothing...

Lol, its funny cause right now I have nothing to blog about, life is goin pretty well (or my thoughts rather) and even though i didnt quite make it through "Up from slavery" I still have this really crazy feeling like everything is gonna be alright...

Sorry but...

Im tired of you and your "everything under the sun revolves around me, including the sun itself" type of attitude. The shit gets old quick. And to be FRANK, lol Ive never been the type to put up with people when I come to realize they possess those "its my way" qualities. I dont have to deal with it I will chuck a quick duece and be out that piece, not a care in the world. Cause sometimes thats just the way shit goes. Sorry if you dont like it but these childish antics have to stop, and I repeat: Im so over it, the shit gets old quick.

Bus Ride blog interrupted

You run into the darnest things riding the TSU shuttle...

But omg PAUSE my two roomies who are Best Friends from Highschool, A and B room are getting into it. OMG they are arguing and IDK if Im supposed to be hearing this. B room is like "talk to me " while A room is like "I dont always have to do what you want to do." Now B room is about to cry and A room really doesnt care and it all started with a simple how was your day from B room that A room took as her being sarcastic. WOW. I really didnt mean to interrupt but Im hungry and they are in the kitchen cooking. AWKWARD!

They are still arguing but im tired of listening B room is slamming shit in the kitchen its getting outta hand. B room just started crying. She is sad cause they are spose to be best friends and they dont do anything together anymore, B room is saying they barely speak anymore.
Ok really Im tired of listening, and they are still arguing im done and Im bout to make my cous cous...

OMG B room just swore on her fathers grave and I quote "AM I LYING ON MY DADDY"S GRAVE" A room just told B room "I'm FUCKIN DONE!" "Im done, Im done I need to breathe" I think she just broke up with her....

Ok a bitch gotta eat IM DONE TOO A ROOM, cause I cant listen to this shit anymore...


.....................exhale................................

So about the bus ride, you find the funniest shit riding the shuttle...
I was in front of the performing arts when I saw the shuttle driving by he stopped to drop off some people and I asked him if he was goin to the apts, he said yes so I got on. I could tell he was a little irritated kinda hasty blowing the horn at people and what not. I was guessing his shift was over and her was ready to go. So we get to the apts and he almost rides past Ford and he says "Oh sorry hunny I almost forgot about you back there" He makes the turn into the lot and I say "Thank you so much and have a nice day" he replies "No problem, now, If you were one of them ugly girls I wouldntna picked you up" ha ha ha ha

OMG tlk about the creepiest thing ever....
Ok Im done time to eat and get to choir

Roomies....cont.

Meeting?

Deemed: Utterly pointless

Roomies....

DAMN its time for the roomate meeting, I was hoping to avoid this shit, I shoulda stayed my ass out somewhere, but its too cold to just be out somewhere, well we will see how this goes

"DOWN WITH THE BITCHES AND THE HOES"

Broken Pieces

Im trying to break away from thinking I need to be around people to be happy, I did just fine by myself when I was by myself and I need to do the same now, almost like a security blanket, cause one day these people might leave and then what? That means I'll be left with them gone and a piece of me missing too, so Im trying not to give too much of that piece. Cause in the end it causes too much trouble and an abundance of heartache.


No more broken pieces

cause I dont no how long this ragged heart can stand

And pretend that it can withstand your penetration

Your determination to infiltrate its core and manipulate what it emotes

Flooding and draining its ventricles with such deceit

Coating the aorta with un-oxygenated blood, suffocating

Oh heart beat once more with pure unadulterated blood

Before you begin to pump the iron and ice that has breached

the veins before it can reach the brain

OH PUMP ONCE MORE HEART THAT WHICH IS PURE AND TRUE

because once these vessels melanize, not only has it got you

...but its got me too

FREE R. KELLY !!!!

I was going through some files and found the whole first season of boondocks in my videos. LOL I kno dnt judge me. But here is one of my fav episodes.
Season 1 episode 2: The Trial of R. Kelly

And remember

"An injustice anywhere is an injustice anywhere"

-Sista Soulja as quoted by R. Kelly

But Blogger wouldnt let me uplopad it in one file cause it was too big and I dnt know how to break it down so I just stole em from youtube, lol.

In memory of...

Toshiba, poor forsaken Toshiba for she is coming to her end, fate has her string of life and the scissors are about to clamp down.

How bout some truth

I still feel weird when I see Marlena, yes every single time, she is a huge walking, no swimming, awkward turtle. and my ear hurts I've been messing with it, almost time for choir, ehh. And i think im coming on, ehh. Srry maybe too much truth.

ta ta for now

Food for thought

Quick note: Im in class and my teacher jus stated

"In 1945 the world became bi-polar"



He' s African by the way....

Mid-day Blues

TSU administration pisses me off! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I cant even be mad anymore im just frustrated, I cursed that lady out so bad in my head on my way to class. Oh the fuck well cause that anouncement will not be made in Hale Hall, Hale nawww! Then on my way walking down the hill my ass tripped over my feet and stumbled, twisted my ankle, and then I jus sat down in the grass.... I tripped like that model that was on the news a few years back..terrible


sigh and this left boot just will not stay up, exposing this damned polka dot yellow sock!!!! Im bout to take my quiz, damn.

Bus ride

OMG I really hate when I get anxious over the dumbest things. So I caught the shuttle to school this morning and instead of being dropped off at the circle I needed to be dropped off at hale. But instead of saying something at the beginning like everybody else, I turn the idea over in my head the entire ride causing myself to become nervous about asking the driver to drop me off at hale! So we approach the circle and I become more and more nervous thinking "Oh no I have to ask him now" luckily someone else needed to be dropped off over here too and all I had to add was a nervous "me too". Oh the things I put myself through....

Pinky

Here's another one, LOL!
OH NO PINKY!!!!!!!!




Dont judge me yes there is a cat in here!

WHY?????

Can someone please tell me why I've spent the last two hours looking at cat video's on youtube. WHY LORD?????!!!! WWWWHHHHHYYYYYY!!!!!!!!????????




OMG HERE IS ANOTHER ONE!

So this morning Josh and I sat down and watched The Notebook for the first time. What a beautiful love story and I must say we both cried... nuff said... yea we were some punks but you would be a punk too if you watched it with somebody you have loved and almost lost, but miraculously it was rekindled. Again, what a beautiful love story.

Wanderer

I am a wanderer. Sometimes I can disappear for hours without a care in the world. The funny part is that the world is my care, the troubles, the happiness, the ups and downs of life. Sometimes I just disappear and ponder, sometimes I actually want people to find me...

It all depends on the subject of my ponderance.
Is that even a word? lol who cares...

ta ta for now

Change?

At the beginning of the election when the democrats hadnt even chosen a presidential candidate, the pro-obama rally in my heart was at an all time high but gradually it started to decrease; not because I had any less faith in the man who would become the first black president, but because I felt that people were only jumping on the Obama wagon because of the color of his skin. I fought with this because the ignorance of my people had begun to over take me. I was angry with them because if Barack was white I doubt how many of them would even know what CNN is; or how many of them would even care about voting let alone politics. So I asked myself does it make it ok that many of them are only voting for him based upon the color of his skin. I mean Obama is not JESUS by any means, I was so angry because black people just couldnt see that he is not the Messiah! Obama became so commercial and popularized I felt like I didnt want to be apart of the new Obama rage, the fad that had taken the black communties by storm. "BLING YOUR OBAMA T SHIRT" flashed across the screen of the college crib advertisement. By that time I was through, now granted this didnt mean that my vote would be swayed it just meant that I wasnt as active as I could have been; I tend to shy away from things that I deem NORMAL! I dont do it on purpose it just happens that way. It wasnt until last night that I was finally enlightened:

Yes many of my peers may have voted for Obama solely based on his race but how many times in history have whites voted against blacks for this same reason. How many times were we seen as inferior and treated as such. As i saw student after student pour out of their apartments jumping for joy screaming, crying, laughing, and calling loved ones, it made a difference in my life. Students running and chanting together "Im so glad my President is Black". Walking from TSU to Fisk cheering and basking in the glory of what will go down in history!!!!


Obama made a DIRECT difference in my LIFE!


Just when I thought life wasnt worth living anymore the current events have allowed me to realize the selfishness of my thoughts and my actions. A new hope, a new birth of optimism has taken over me. I can love people a little more, be a little nicer, give a little better, and just live a greater life. Its almost surreal, I woke up this morning thinking "did it really happen?" And when I realized the black hole that usually wakes up with me each morning had gone, I knew it was true. I slept nightmare free last night, and it was wonderful.

So thank you Obama, thank you TSU, and thank you America.

If the punishment wasn't eternity in hell, I think I'd actually do it...
aspirin and cuervo ready...