Roomies....cont.

Meeting?

Deemed: Utterly pointless

How bout some truth

I still feel weird when I see Marlena, yes every single time, she is a huge walking, no swimming, awkward turtle. and my ear hurts I've been messing with it, almost time for choir, ehh. And i think im coming on, ehh. Srry maybe too much truth.

ta ta for now

Mid-day Blues

TSU administration pisses me off! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I cant even be mad anymore im just frustrated, I cursed that lady out so bad in my head on my way to class. Oh the fuck well cause that anouncement will not be made in Hale Hall, Hale nawww! Then on my way walking down the hill my ass tripped over my feet and stumbled, twisted my ankle, and then I jus sat down in the grass.... I tripped like that model that was on the news a few years back..terrible


sigh and this left boot just will not stay up, exposing this damned polka dot yellow sock!!!! Im bout to take my quiz, damn.

Bus ride

OMG I really hate when I get anxious over the dumbest things. So I caught the shuttle to school this morning and instead of being dropped off at the circle I needed to be dropped off at hale. But instead of saying something at the beginning like everybody else, I turn the idea over in my head the entire ride causing myself to become nervous about asking the driver to drop me off at hale! So we approach the circle and I become more and more nervous thinking "Oh no I have to ask him now" luckily someone else needed to be dropped off over here too and all I had to add was a nervous "me too". Oh the things I put myself through....

Boyfriend neone?

umm iono wut the hell is wrong with me. Im honestly upset and kinda mad right now. But I cant tell you why. All i know is that I wanna be loud, rude, curse and wreck havoc on something, someone, somewhere. Iono if I like Maya's new boo, he aiight but it takes me 4ever to warm up to people. I wanted to go to the student center today but there was jus no time. This day was full and it went by fast. Not to mention me and Josh arent the best of friends right now but hey, iono. Autumn was breating all on his arm today and she actually touched him. ehh. me and dori were freakin awesome today but thaas it. That was the best part of my day. ehh.

dori moment

So Josh and I are eating lunch we just sat down in the sub after getting our food. Then the random ass light skinned african from choir comes and sits down at our table. Talkin bout "WASSUP MY CHOIR PEOPLE" Nigga yo ass aint even in choir no more and you defintely werent invited to sit down at our table. But thanks for inviting yourself and runing my lunch with your "so hows the weather" random convo. And no I dont have a music appreciation book for yo ass, its on ebay. pay for it ho!

Consistency

One thing that I really cannot stand is inconsistency, especially if two people are supposed to be treated as equals. You cannot do something one day and wen the other persons does it, have a problem with it, be consistent. Again I say be effin CONSISTENT! Don’t say you are gonna do something and never call or show up, be consistent!!!!!!!! I beseech, behoove, and beg of you my brethren to be consistent!!!

Furthermore people make time for what really matters to them. A simple txt message, 30 sec of your day will not kill you! Even if the fallacy only occurred once, it only takes one time to get AIDS, it only takes one hurricane to drown a city, it only took one plane each to make the twin towers fall. You see where I'm going with this? So yea one time does count, if its remarkable enough it will stick with you. When your life gets too busy for the people you "so called" care about you should really reevaluate what is important. Life wasn’t too busy for dinner and video games was it? But everything is too busy for me right? Yea, back to that consistency theory, you should try it.

To be honest all I really want (as I was telling Dori earlier) is someone to play in my hair and tell me I'm pretty; someone to actually act like they care and not continually poke and prod at me with erroneously requests to things that are usually the norm. For you to take out some time in your busy day to say HI FRANKIE!!! Let alone give me a hug, and no you did not hug me, I remember. Next time instead of being nice about it, be consistent and say Bitch get OUT!, it'll make me feel 10x better that you were honest about your true intent instead of being led astray. Oh and another clue: when women run away, men chase after them, cause if you keep letting them go, eventually they wont come back.

All she wrote...

What I am trying to compel people to understand is that I am using this as an outlet a tool to focus my innermost thoughts and energies toward. I am indeed a very poetic and dramatic person so my words will be crafted as such. And thats all she wrote...

Scattered thoughts, Unstable mind

I hate coming back to my room, it depresses me... I haven't cried in a few days I think I'll just sit and have a good cry.




There, now I feel a bit worse, ha ha.

There is a wasp on the wall. Sigh Thats the second one I think they have a nest or coven or whatever you call it, somewhere nearby. Whatever if I get stung and whatever if I dont, it doesnt matter. I just wish it'd shut up its damned noise, Ill just turn my music up.

This constant compromise between thinking and breathing...

I feel so blah