The Preamble

I'm so sick of going through stuff and having to get up the next day and pretend like nothing ever happened. It hurts. Everything hurts and I continue to just make myself numb to it. I don't forgive you, yes it did happen, no you cant run away from it. Now we are faced with a whole new ball game my friend, and the ball is completely in my court. I don't care how YOU feel anymore, I don't care what YOU think I should do, I don't have to answer to YOU or make YOU happy, I just have to take care of myself and my future child and do what God says. Despite what YOU my think, its Him that's taken care of me all this time and not YOU. However you do owe me, you owe me big time. Its about time for me to write that letter, I can feel it, but for now you only get "The Preamble".

Not a quitter

If I was a quitter I really wouldn't be here right now. I thank God for giving me a spirit of perseverance and endurance, you just don't know how much I would love to BAIL right now, and be with my mom and aunt and the girls, laughin it up in the kitchen on a Friday night.

Thank God for not making me a quitter....

and for all of YOUR people who think they know me and think and know what Im going through, let them live a day in my shoes, let them live a day of all the bs then tell me how they would react or feel. Im sick of the people who are just out here to put you down, you dont know me, and I DONT want your opinion, or yours, or yours and especially not YOURS!

Man, Im out

GRRRR!!!

THIS IS WHAT'S IRRITATING, YOU SAY "DONT TOUCH MY GATORADE" AND YOU LOOK IN THE REFRIGERATOR A COUPLE OF HOURS LATER AND ITS GONE!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRR, THIS IS FRUSTRATING, NOW I'M THIRSTY AND PISSED!

Damn those infomercials!

Pregnancy and Feed the children infomercials DO NOT MIX! I was nearly bawling when I saw the little Nigerian boy Alex trying to take care of this 3 younger brothers all alone. They were eating something wheat-based out of a silver basin, and Alex didnt eat at all because he was feeding his brothers. I need a nap before I become any more emotional.

Passing Ponderance

A mindset to write is a mindset to cry, a mindset for truth. Inspiration takes pain. Sucks doesn’t it. You cant say anything if you’ve never been through anything. But is it really all worth it? We will never know until the end. They say the ends justify the means. That means we have to wait a whole damn lifetime before we get it, the rest of the time we are just building up to the epiphany. SUCKS doesn’t it? Lets know now so we can at least spend a portion of life LIVING and not just trying to figure shit out. Overly confused, unjustfully repressed, HOW to be FREE? I guess that’s the real question.

I'm mad cause SAI has to wear black polo's and black slacks to rush. We are going to look like a bunch of waitresses. Welcome to Sigma Alpha Iota how can I help you? Would you like fries with that? Or maybe some roses. Hold the hazing? Oh Im sorry we dont offer that here.

Even <---her outfit will look better than ours.

Out of patience

Wow, I guess Im just out of everything this week...

Well anyway, today was a great day might I add. Very sisterly endeavours indeed! ha ha I crack myself up. But you know the wear and tear of things gets a little stressful and you just slowly lose patience. SOOOO SAI was out all day from shopping for out next musicale, to shopping for rush, to decorating and planning (which was someone elses job, might I add)
But none-the-less it was worth it and fun

We literally just got back from the days festivities, (its 12:30 am here, we left at 12:00 noon) got into it with the people at McDonalds because they cant count, or hear for that matter. BUT to top it all off when I got back to my room, there was one of those lovely little blue stationery's under my door from my roomate tiffany. So she says

Hey Frankie! Could you remember to wipe the toothpaste out the sink and off the counter when you are done brushing your teeth. Thanks in advance...

Now I can do nothing but laugh at this, and in my usual state I would have let it roll off, like all the other little nit-picky bitchy things she does. (She is a great person by the way) (Just highly annoying)

So in my angst I get a piece of blue construction paper (lol) tear it in half and write

Hey Tiff, not to be rude but Ive only been here 3 days and you've already found something to complain about. At this current time I just really dont have the patience for your nit-picking. Thanks in advance for not taking this offensively I just wanted to let you know early.
P.S. No I don't want to talk about it.

And I slid it under her door, now its time for bed, ha ha, I crack myself up.